Home and me.

Yay! I get to go home and see people. It really makes me think about all the people I haven't seen in a while and really miss.

No big surprise to a lot of people... if I don't see you on a regular basis, I am horrible at actually keeping up with you. I have tried really hard for the last four years to keep up with certain people from high school but have found it really challenging, especially in the last year or so, since I am not coming home for the summer and only get to see people for a few days at a time when I am in North Carolina. I love all my friends from high school, but there are times when I feel so disconnected that its hard to make the effort.

BITD... when I had first decided to move up to DC for college, my mom told me that I would probably grow up a lot more than my friends who stayed near where we had grown up. She told me about a friend of her's who went away to college and came back to their hometown a few years later and how much that friend had changed. I remember thinking that nothing like that would happen to me. Its so much easier to keep in touch these days: there's email and instant messangers, etc. Freshman year, I didn't feel the effect, sophomore year not so much either. I didn't really think about it too much until my friends came up here to see me and I realized how different I was up here compared to when I go home. I feel like I am two people: one like I was still in high school and one that I am now. While these two people are very similar, there are some touches of maturity that I lose when I am there. I love who I am now, when I am here in DC/MD... when I go to North Carolina I feel not only like I've lost a little bit of myself but like I am an outsider for not keeping up with my friends as much as I should. Then I feel guilty for not keeping up with them more. GAH! I think that I need to learn how to realize that it takes two people to keep in touch... its not all my fault, but I do accept that half of it is me.